Kiss In The Dark
Jade Price Williams
Copyright Jade Price Williams 2011
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Author's
Note
Kiss
In The Dark was written in the summer of 2010. It was not me alone
that wrote the book, but me and someone who was, and still is very
dear to my heart. Sadly he passed away not long after finishing the
book and couldn't share the happiness of seeing it become what it is
today. Therefore, I am dedicating this book to him. Also a great
thanks to those who read and reviewed the first draft of the book,
and who helped me improve it, whom without; I would not have been
able to finish it.
"In
the arms of my angel, I'm comforted here. Side by side, hand in hand.
We shall fly to Juffiee's Wonderland."
To
Justin Nicholo Richards, my partner in crime. May you sleep soundly.
Chapter 1 - The First Time We Meet…
Matt:
I'm sitting at a bench at break with my newly acquired best friend, when I see him. A tall pale guy with hair as dark as night. He's leaning against one of the outbuildings, talking to a dark haired girl who's eyes are rimmed with black.
Wow.
The two of them are deep in conversation and I think it's safe to ask. 'Who are they?' I ask Jaden. Jaden's my new best friend. He's been my best friend since my first day here - which was about a week ago. He found me sitting on the front steps - half an hour late to my first class - lost as a goldfish in the ocean, and helped me find my way there. We've been like two peas in a pod since then.
'Oh, they're the Hayberly twins,' says Jaden, answering my question. I give him a questioning look. 'The tall guy is Ash Hayberly. He's in our year, he's a bisexual and loves to party. As does his twin sister there.. She's in our year too obviously, and she's in our 3rd period English class. Her names Alexia, but everyone calls her Alex for short. She's straight and keeps herself to herself. Most of the time anyway,' he finishes with a smile.
Hmmm... Well I hadn't thought that they were twins.. Because from I was standing I couldn't see Ash's face. I'm wondering what he looks like in the whole, when suddenly Alex looks at me, says something to her twin and then nods h head in my direction.
Uh oh.. What was that for? Had I been staring? At her nod Ash turns around to look at me.
And that's the moment I fell in love with Ash Hayberly.
Chapter 2 - Won’t Be Just a Passing On The Street
Ash:
I'm standing there, leaning against some outbuilding, talking to Alex about some party uptown this weekend, when I feel eyes watching me from behind. It doesn't bother me. I'm used to people staring by now, but it annoys Alex, who's realised I'm distracted from our conversation.
I'm wondering who was staring this time.. Some newbie who's just been told I'm a 'fag' by the jocks? Or one of the jocks themselves.. Wondering how the hell I could touch guys and get off on it? Well anyway, who cares?
I focus on Alex.
She's looking over my shoulder with a grin in her eye. She turns back to me and says with a grin, There’s one hot fuck of a guy staring at you right now,' she nods her head towards the place behind me.
Slowly with a grin on my face, I turn to my observer. And almost double back in shock.
The guy who's looking at me is one of the most gorgeous guys I've ever seen. He has dark, straight hair and eyes rimmed with Kohl. He's wearing a 'Made Of Money' t-shirt and black skinny jeans.
He blushes when our eyes meet. I'm lost in the depth of his beautiful blue eyes. We're staring at each other for quite some time until he suddenly looks away. He then whispers something to his friend.. Oh I know him! He's Jaden Moore from my Biology class. He sits right behind me in a table that was empty.. I'm guessing him and the new guy sit together now though.. Hmmm.. I'll have to have a little chat with him in class.
I've never seen this cutie before, and I would have definitely noticed him before. So he's a newbie then.. It's weird, but I hope that Jaden guy hasn't put it into the newbies head that I'm a 'freak that should be avoided'. Mind you, Jaden sometimes hangs around with our crowd, so I'm guessing he's one of the good guys here.
Meanwhile, while all of this is going through my head, the two guys have gotten up Andre walking towards us, with Jaden in the lead. By the time they've reached us, Alex is grinning like a Cheshire cat on weed, 'Hey Jaden,' she says 'who's your new friend?'
'Hi Alex, hi Ash.. Oh right yeah, you guys.. This is Matt.. And Matt, this is Ash and Alex Hayberly.' Jaden makes funny little hand gestures to and fro between us. At this, Alex snorts and walks away towards some of her friends - shaking her head as she goes.
I turn back to look at the new guy, Matt.. Cute name. Jaden starts talking about the same party Alex was on about, and asks if I'm going. 'Yeah I guess, you?'
'Yeah, me and Matt are going together and then he's crashing at mine for the night,' Jaden grinned. Hmmm.. I wonder..
'Are you two together? As in together, together?' I ask bluntly. Might as well cut to the chase. At this, Matt who hasn't said anything since they came over and has just been watching me quietly, coughs - hiding a laugh.
Though just before Jaden - who I can tell clearly likes Matt more than the average Joe - says anything boasting and totally not true (he seemed to have a habit of doing that), Matt interjects..
'No,' he says evenly and calmly. As if he's done this a million times before. When he says this though he looks up at me, and the look in his eyes tells me everything I need to know.
The look he gives me is pure lust. He wants me.. Bad.
Chapter 3 - Lust And Desire
Matt:
Shit.
He knows. I can see it in his eyes.. He knows I want him.
Oh
my god. He's so hot! Fucking hell, I wanna jump him right here, right
now. No I'll wait 'till Friday.. At that party Jaden's always going
on about. Wait, what am I saying? I don't even know the guy! How can
I want someone purely by looking at them? Oh but he's so
gorgeous..
His
tall, lean body.. His dark, straight hair.. Mmmm.. He's practically
Sex On A Stick.
He's grinning at me, with a look that says
'Your mine at the party.' Oh god, do I want to be his alright! Shit..
This is getting my little soldier way too happy. Thank god I'm
wearing my loosest skinnies today.
I'm
so stuck in my own mental meltdown, that I don't notice Jaden's
saying bye and is talking to me, waving his hands in front of my eyes
and yelling, 'Matt, whooo, earth to Matthew?' I shake myself
mentally.. Come on Matt, get a grip.
'Sorry,'
I say out loud, 'I was space cadetting for a moment there.'
'Tell
me something I don't know,' Jaden chuckles. Ash says nothing and just
looks at me with that grin in his eyes, making them shine.
'Well
uhmm.. Bye Ash. See you at the party I guess,' I say avoiding his
eyes.
'Yeah, I'll definitely be there,' he says 'I can't wait,
it's gonna be so much fun.' he says this with an absolute sober look
on his features.
All except his eyes that is, his eyes are
filled with yearning and excitement.
Chapter 4 - Are Like Ice And Fire.
Ash:
Well
that was fun while it lasted, I think as the bell rings and the
populace of Gridel High troop in through the main or back doors of
the school. First formers hurrying through the corridors, so as not
to be late for their next lesson. Whilst some of the older kids hang
back in the cloak rooms, for a quick chat with friends.
And
me - well, I drag my butt to school everyday.. And what do I get? A
bunch of dickhead teachers that ether bitch about my schoolwork or
about my amount of tardy slips this month. Can't they just be
grateful I showed up?
The only exception to this is my art
teacher, Mrs Swayze. She is my uppermost favourite teacher in the
whole school. She lets me draw what I want as long as I put feeling
into it, and I always do because art is my favourite subject. It's
the only one I don't ever get close to a D on.
The day slowly
drags by, along with lessons. All I can think about is
him.
Matt.
Even
when my last and favourite lesson comes, I can't concentrate on the
Graveyard Scene I'm supposed to be drawing. Mrs Swayze sees I'm not
putting my all into it but doesn't interfere. She knows I have my off
days.
By
the time the fine bell goes and noisy teenagers are crowding the
halls - I'm ready for a party! This weekend is gonna be great! I'm
thinking as I pass Jaden and Matt on my way home.
I
swear I see Matt blush slightly as I brush past him.
Chapter 5 - A Party With Pills…
Matt:
The week goes by in a haze of work and hanging out at Jadens'. Before I know it, it's Friday night and I'm getting ready for the party. I slide on my tightest skinny jeans, they're bright blue and they my arse look good (or so I've heard.) Next I slip on my You Me At Six t-shirt and some comfy Converse that are so worn and faded that the once bright red shoes have turned a dull scarlet colour.
I hear the doorbell go downstairs - I grab a random hoodie (turned out to be a comic strip one) and run downstairs to answer it. I open my front door to find a very nice looking Jaden indeed. He's dressed near enough the same as me. Tightest skinnys - a bright red colour, a blue RIOT! tee and a red hoodie that matches his jeans and his Vans.
'You ready?' he asks, re- adjusting his blonde and blue side fridge.
'Yeah, let's party!' I say, stepping out onto the street and closing and locking my front door. 'Lets go Jaden baby' I tease.He smirks at me, then turns and begins walking down the road.
I follow Jaden to a medium size house in a middle-class neighbourhood not far from my house. From the outside, you could hear 'screamo' music being played at full volume. Small groups of kids were hanging out in the front yard, most of them anything but sober.
Jaden rings the doorbell and an extremely drugged-up Goth chick answers the door, 'Heey theree, comee in.. There's plenty 'drugs and booze for all *giggle* your needs,' she slurs before stepping aside and letting us in.
Once we're inside the house, Jaden drags me to the kitchen and grabs us both a beer. Then he pulls me through a crowd of either drunk, passed out or tripped up kids to the living room. He sits me down on the nearest sofa and hands me a beer. I down it instantly. I haven't had alcohol in a while..
'Well, well,' says a voice beside me, it's one I recognised from the other day. 'I never though you were the type," Ash says in his smooth voice.
I jump slightly and turn to face him. 'Hey gorgeous,' he says, grinning at me. I blush uncontrollably and avoid eye contact.
'Uhmm.. Hey Ash' I say, staring anywhere but into his eyes.
'Hey Matt.. Though it may be fun to talk to my crotch, it will be a one sided conversation all the way. So why don't you talk to my face huh?' Ash chuckles, amused. Shit! I hadn't realised I was starring at his crotch. Uh oh. Wait, was it... No, surely not? Oh my god, yes it was! He was getting a bulge! I look away and avert my eyes. What am I going to say now? 'Im sorry, I was just checking out what might be going up my arse tonight?' Somehow, I don't think that would bode well. I look up into his eyes and he grins knowingly.
'Oh, I forgot. I wanted to show you something the other day in class but I forgot. Come on, I'll show you outside,' Ash says suddenly. But before I can object or Jaden can come to my rescue, Ash gets up off the couch and pulls me up and outside with him.
He takes me out and around the house, to a quiet walkway that's free of buzzing teenagers.
'Ash, what are you -' Ash has me pssed up against the wall before I can even blink. I'm startled by this and grunt quietly as my back hits the wall.
'Fucking hell, I want you Matt! I want you so bad,' Ash whispers in my ear, before letting out a quiet groan in frustration. One of his hands, holds both of mine above my head and the other strokes my cheek. I blush as he does this, it feels nice to be dominated. 'You do want me too right?' he asks.
I can't lie to him now. I look into his beautiful eyes and whisper, 'Yeah, yeah I do.'
At this, his lips come crashing down on mine and I'm kissing him with a hunger I never knew I possessed.
Chapter 6 - Thrills And Vodka Spills.
Ash:
I'm kissing him and it feels amazing! And what's even more amazing, is that he's kissing me back. God, I just want to take him back to mine and touch him all over.. Oh no, he's struggling to get free now. Oh, only his hands, he's staying put.. Thankfully. His hands are roaming all over the place - in my hair, down my torso, along the waistline of my jeans.. Unbuttoning them. Oops, I think he's getting a little too carried away. I mean, yes I want to fuck him.. Badly. Just not here.
'Matt, babe?' I say gently, pulling back slightly.
'Yeah?' Aww poor thing, he looks worried. He's furrowing his eyerpbrows up at me in confusion.
'We can't, not here anyway babes,' I say doing up my jeans' buttons and then bringing him in for another kiss.
Soon after that, we go back inside and party till were no where near sober. When it's time to go home I hear Jaden call, 'Ok, come on you guys. I'll walk you home,' and we begin wobbling our way over to my house.
When we reach my place, and it's time to say goodbye, Matt (who's standing next to me) doesn't say anything.
'Aren't you gonna say bye Matt?' Jaden asks him.
He says simply, 'I don't need to say bye do I, if I'm staying with him tonight?' Awww, now that's cute.
'Oh, aren't you staying at mine tonight then?' asks Jaden, he's obviously disappointed to hear this.
'No mate, me and Ash 'ere have business to finish,' he turns to me grinning, then waves goodbye to Jaden - who looks deflated.
'Oh, okay then.. Bye,' he says and walks off down the road. Poor kid.
'Aren't you gonna let us in then?' Matt grins up at me.
'Of course babe,' I say, opening the front door and leading him to my room.
My rooms fairly tidy with odd bits and bobs cluttering the desk and floor, while the the walls are covered from top to bottom in posters, drawings, gig tickets and photos of me and some of my good partying buddies on nights out.
As soon as I've closed the door, he's on me. Pulling me towards him like I'm a life ring saving him in the middle of the ocean. Kissing me like a man that's been out in the desert and is finally quenching his thirst. His hand moves down my chest and up under my shirt, pulling it up and over my head and throwing it to the far side of the room.
Matt:
I'm kissing his bare chest and imagining stroking him thoroughly when all of a sudden I get rock hard. I'm moaning into the skin of his collar bone, trying not to let him find out about my hard on. I want to please him first, but if he knows I'm hard.. He might want it to be the other way, and that's what I don't want. So I'm kissing him with about three inches between our bottom halves, yet somehow, even though my tongue is busy exploring his mouth.. He notices and pulls me forward. Ah shit.
Ash:
Matt's hard on presses rigidly against me. So that's what he was trying to hide eh? 'Well, it looks like someone wants attention,' I say, smiling as I slip my hands under his jeans but not his boxers. He gasps cutely when I lightly stroke him from tip to base. By the second stroke, he's purring softly. Hmmm... I wonder.
I push him towards my double bed, making him lie down. I get on top of him and undo his jean buttons - sliding them off him and throwing them to the floor. I kiss his lips, his neck, his chest.. All the way down to his pierced hips. Then, when I reach the waistband of his boxers (which are very low) I lick all the way from one side to the other, curving my tongue just under his boxers briefly, before returning to his hips.
I do it over and over, until he's moaning loudly and shifting his hips.. Urging me to go further. After a moment of teasing him, I give him what he wants. I slowly peel of his cute Spongebob boxers, and throw them to our growing pile of clothes on the floor.
Then, I bend my head and attend to his little soldiers commands.
Chapter 7 - A Night To Remember
Matt:
Ooooooh
fuuuuuuck! Oh, I think I'm going to..
'A..A..Ash, s..s..stop
or I'm g..g..gonna...' I moan at Ash, who's running his tongue along
the most sensitive part of me. Oh god, this feels so good!
'it's
okay baby, you can come, I don't mind. Damn, do you realise how hot
you are boy?' Ash says, pulling his mouth away for a moment, and
softly biting my neck.
'But.. I'm gonna..'
'Baby,
it's okay, honest. Just close your eyes, enjoy it and let go,' As if
to emphasise what he's saying, he bends back down to my crotch and
begins licking again.. This time though, he does it much harder.
Oh
god! 'Ooooh, Ash.. I'm not.. Gonna be able to hold.. It any longer..
Ah, ah.. Ahhhhh!' I moan loudly as a wave of pure ecstasy washes over
me and ripples through my body like a tsunami of pure
bliss.
Mmmmm..
God I love this guy!
Ash:
He's so fucking beautiful! As
so.. BIG! Haha.. So I'm sucking him off and what happens? He tries to
hold it in! Now, that's sweet of him, but I honestly don't mind it in
my mouth.
Especially
if it's his.
So I persuade him to let go and he does, with the
sexiest, longest moan I've ever caused anyone to make. Ever. I look
up at him, a naughty smirk playing on my lips. Hmmm..
Matt:
That's
it, it's Ash's turn now! We swap positions and I flip him over onto
his back. Slowly, I work my way down his slim body. Kissing and
licking him along the way. Reaching his boxers, I bend my head to his
now VERY hard dick.
I give him my version of The Best Blow-job
Ever, and soon enough, he's moaning for release as my mouth is filled
with a hot, sticky liquid.
Chapter 8 - A Shower And Shivers
Matt:
I open my eyes to find Ash's naked body next to mine. Wow, I got.. By.. I sit up suddenly and Ash turns over and his beautiful eyes open. He gives me a 100 watt smile and brings his hands to my face.
He pulls me towards him and we kiss, then I remember that I probably have morning breath and hurriedly back away. He look at me questioningly before I ask 'Can I use your shower?'
Ash smiles, 'Sure you can babe,' I grab my boxers off the floor and head to the bathroom, not realising that Ash is following me until I turn to close the door, and nearly whack him in the face.
'Oops,' I giggle, and bite my lip to shut myself up. Don't make yourself look like a prat Matt, I think to myself.
'Mind if I join you?' Ash grins, seemingly unfazed by what I'd almost done to him. I blush and let him pass, closing the door behind him.
He turns on the shower and we both stand waiting for the water to get hot. I check out Ash's body when I think he's not looking. Fuck, he looks even hotter today. Or maybe it's 'cause he's half naked? Either way, it's enough to melt MY popsicle.
His slightly tanned skin is glowing in the light of the bathroom, and his toned torso is so tempting.. I have the urge to jump him. And further down, his nice Calvin Klein clad butt and his HUGE -
Ash notices me staring and chuckles. He comes close and whispers in my ear, 'Haven't you been taught? Staring is rude y'know.. And to stare at such a thing,' he purrs in a fake posh accent. 'Your a very naughty boy, and naughty boys must be punished. Now let's see, how do YOU like being stared at,' he continued with a cheeky grin, pulling down my boxers in one swift movement.
Ash:
Mmmmm he's so damn hot! Especially now that he's hot 'n bothered 'cause I caught him checking me out. Hehe.. Awwwh he's blushing. I touch him gently and he shivers.
'Ash,' he whispers 'the waters ready,' I chuckle. Oh no, he's not gonna get away with it that easy. I can assure you. I'll let him have some space though.. For a minute. He climbs into the shower and I follow shortly.
I'm about to kiss him when he turns his back to me, and begins washing himself. Sneaky little shit! He's definitely getting it now!
He's reaching for the shower gel, but I snatch it off the shelf thing before he can get to it. He turns is head towards me without moving his body and says, 'what was that for?'
I grin seductively and say, 'I thought you might like some help with that,' then I squeeze some gel onto my hands, rub them together and begin to lather Matt in Lynx Energy. Matt is reluctant however, and mumbles, ' Ash, I.. I'm honestly okay. I can do it my s-- Oooh, mmmmm' he moans as I move lower down. I kiss his neck and he turns around until he's fully in my arms. He kisses me deeply, and I push him against the wall of the shower. He pulls me close and I reach down and..
Matt:
He's pushed me against the shower wall, and I'm moaning and totally wanting him to fuck me, this minute.. Then all of a sudden he's chuckling with that daredevil glint in his eyes, and he's backing away and out of the shower. Leaving me standing there, with the water (that had by now gone cold) pouring down on me, still with a hard on. The fucking bastard! I'm SO getting him back for this!!
Chapter 9 - Sweet, Sweet Revenge.
Ash:
I'm in my room towelling myself dry and laughing at the look on Matt's face just now. Priceless. Ahh he's probably ganja be pissed off with me now. Woops hehe. I'm sure it's nothing some OS won't fix.
Mmmm Matt's back, and he's behind me, kissing my neck. Looks like I didnt upset him to much then. Ah well, I'm still going for a little OS..
Matt:
I climb out from under the freezing water, and step out onto the tiled floor. I grab the nearest towel and head for Ash's room. A plan of revenge on Ash already forming in my head as I get nearer to his bedroom door. Oh the sweet, sweet revenge.
I reach the bedroom to find Ash with his back to me, drying himself off. I come up behind him and begin dealing out my sweet justice. I begin to kiss his neck, starting with little butterfly kisses, before biting and sucking his neck - HARD. I go at it for a little while and get him moaning, then I stop when I see a massive hickey forming. YES! Step One complete. I back off and start getting dressed.
Ash sighs and rubs his neck, making no effort to get dressed. I'm fully clothed by the time I return to him to complete Step Two.
I turn him to face me and caress his face with my fingertips. He smiles and I almost fall for it. Almost. I pull his head towards mine and close in on his lips. Oh those sweet, sweet lips.. SNAP OUT OF IT MATT! I mentally yell at myself. Your doing this as punishment to Ash for - And then Ash's tongue slides into my mouth and I'm lost.. FOCUS MATT! Right yeah, okay.. My hand slides to his crotch and I begin to rub 'him'. Ash starts moaning my name and gyrating his hips in time to the movement of my hand. Now, still rubbing I moe down to kiss his chest, his stomach, his hips..
I kneel on the soft beige carpet, 'Close your eyes,' I whisper. As does as he's told. 'Dont open them until I tell you to okay?' I continue, Ash nods obediently - eyes still shut. I smile quietly to myself. Step Two - Complete.
I quietly get yo off my knees and say, 'Okay baby, I'm just going to get something from downstairs. I'll be right back okay?' he nods and I turn and quickly walk out of his bedroom, closing the door behind me. I rush down the stairs and to the front door. Slipping out into the cold morning air, I try my best to close the door as quietly as possible. Then I head off home, as easy as that! Hah, he's so gullible.
I chuckle to myself as I walk home, thinking of Ash alone is his room, waiting for my non existent return with his soldier on full salute. Hahaha, knobhead!
Ash:
I'm waiting for Matt to come back and give me some OS! He's taking his damn time isn't he? He's such a prick tease. Come on man, this is getting stupid now! It's been what, 25 - 30 minutes? That's it, I'm going to find the little fucker and - SHIT! The little prick was playing me all along! He's vanished. Probably ran off home. Oh ho ho, he is SO getting it in school on Monday! And THAT is a promise.
Chapter 10 - The Aftermath
Matt:
I'm sat in my Mums car, revising for the big maths test. But Ash will be mad at me and will surely want revenge *shit*. It's already lunch break and I can't see Ash anywhere. I hope nothing's wrong. Then I feel two big, cold and silky hand cover my eyes.
He whispers in his sexy voice, 'Matthew you've been a naughty boy,' I giggle and hope nobody heard. His hand rest on my clad bottom, and I slowly turn around with a smile.
He leads me to the Maths room (where I will soon start my test) locking the door behind him and closing the curtains.
Ash:
My plan will be working soon, I will have foreplay with him and make him miss his test. Ohh revenge is sweet, there will have to be a lot of sex tonight to make up for this :')
Matt:
I'm having a great make out session with Ash and he seems to be happy. I have to remember in 45 minutes my math test will start after lunch break. I feel Ash does not want revenge and were equal now =)
Ash:
I sit Matt on a table and undo his trousers and pull them to his ankles. I tell him to turn round and kiss his neck softly and in the corner of my eye I see a ruler; I reach over and take it. I whisper into Matt's ear,
''This might hurt a little sweetie'' and kiss his ear and Matt moans.
I slap the ruler and Matt shrieks. I keep a steady rhythm of smacking his bottom, then I take my fingers to the elastic on Matt's Calvin Klein boxers and peel them to the knee. I hear Matt gulp. I spank his bottom with the ruler for a good sound 5 minutes, I see tears welling up in his beautiful deep eyes and I can see my revenge is almost over. Then I pull his skinny jeans back up and kiss his forehead and smile.
Matt:
I cant believe Ash is spanking me, it hurts soo much but feels good! He's soo seductive, I'm going to have to marry him in the future. Then I wonder what the time is, I've been with Ash for at least 30 minutes...maybe more. Oh well I don't think the bell has gone yet soo we must have some time yet too go *I think*
Ooo Ash is pulling my trousers up, he reaches forward and I turn around I ask him what time it is.
He chuckles and says, ''Im not sure yet sweetie''
Im so worried that time is going to fast and I will miss the big Math test. Ash pulls my shirt up and kisses up from my navel to my chin. He takes off his tie and puts one finger on my lips before walking behind me and the table, he raps the stripy school tie around my eyes and kisses me on the lips.
''Let me get undressed'' I nod my head, his words sending shivers through me.
Ash:
My very beautiful looking boyfriend is sat shirtless with his 6 pack out and a tie around his eyes.. Sea blue eyes. Then I slowly walk away and open the door slowly and shut it. 30 seconds later a whole class of students come running in and see Matt sat there. Isn't revenge sweet?
Tonights going to be fun with Matt ...
Chapter 11 - The Twist. (Part 1)
Matt:
I'm sat there on the table a red as tomato and nearly as red as my bottom *thanks to Ash*
the teacher scolded me and told me to go home. Tonight I'm playing a gig which should be amazing and hopefully all my class mates will forget the little math test nudity thing.
Well I ask my Mum to collect me from school on my mobile and tell her I got in a little fight.
After I get into to the car and tell mum a fake fight story she just nods her head and tells me if it happens again I'm in trouble. I get in my room, kick of my brand new Vans and put my hair straighteners on. So I'm getting ready and my mobile rings. I answer it and its Ash.
(phone call)
Ash: 'Ello baby hope you didn't get in to much trouble today.
Me: Ash, if I didn't love you so much I would kill you already...
Ash: I love you Matty; so are you getting ready for tonight - ''the big gig''
Me: Of course I'm getting ready, I got to look good for tonight.
Ash: Well I better let you get ready for tonight| I love you bye *kissing noise*
Me: Bye baby.
(Phone call ends)
Ash:
So I get off the phone with Matt feeling pretty excited for tonight. I put my best underwear on (for matt of course but to be honest they will be coming off quickly.) Then I get an e-mail off one of my friends saying the big gig had been cancelled right now I'm gutted. I Hope I still get my sexy time with Matty tonight..
Matt:
After being told by my Jaden the gigs' cancelled I'm so sad :( then Jaden calls me I hope it's to say the gig hasn't really been cancelled.
(Phone call)
Jaden: Helloo Matt.. Err, I was wondering if you'd like to come to mine tonight? I mean, we've not hung out for a bit. Plus I have some wine and vodka for a good night?
Matt: So can Ash come too?
Jaden: Of course he can.
Matt: We're going to have cool night then =)
Jaden: Well, get ready and come over at 8:00pm!
Matt: Okay, bye Jay.
Jaden: Bye sweetie.
(phone call ends)
Ash:
So I'm ready to see Matt tonight for some lush scene sex, when Jaden texts me to come to his house at 8:45pm - For a small party with Matt and him. Sounds great can't wait. Then my phone lights up. It's Jaden calling me.. I rush over to my phone and answer it.
(Phone call)
Jaden: Err, hey Ash. Fancy coming to my house tonight for a small hangout?
Ash: Well, okay. I was going to Matt's tonight but..
Jaden: Matt's coming already, I just called him.
Ash: Well okay, what time shall I come over to you house tonight?
Jaden: Come at 8:45pm and just walk in, I'll be rushing around anyway.
Ash: Well okay if your sure. I'll bring takeaway and some booze.
Jaden: Sounds great! Ill see you later then, bye.
Ash: Goodb..(BEEP)
(Phone call ends)
Chapter 11 - The Twist. (Part 2)
Matt:
So Im wearing my best clothes and shoes; My Drop Dead shirt and hoodie, my black and tightest skinny jeans and my new Adidas trainers with pink laces. I'm fucking freezing and the winds blowing all of my Jet black hair around in the wind. Fuck. Not a sexy look.
I walk up Jaden's path and I knock on the tall black door. His house looks amazing, all brick work. He opens the door with a charming smile and welcome's me into the house. I feel a little on the edge without Ash being there with me. Jaden passes me a White Vodka bottle and says drink up. He walks over to the iPod dock and puts some music on.
He sits next to me and grabs the bottle off me, gulping it down before handing it back to me. He looks into my eyes and look into his, I see the want in his light brown eyes. Licking his lips slowly, he leans in for a kiss and I shake my head.
''Jaden Im a little tipsy and out of it please; I have feelings, but not at this moment in time..."
I fall off of the sofa and Jaden falls on top of me, he puts his knee's at both sides of my waist and I cant restrain from it. Jaden softly pecks me on the lips I shake my head again. He passes me the Vodka bottle again and I take a big gulp of it. I reach up and snog him, he holds my head and sucks my neck. SHIT!
''Don't give me love-bites please, Ash will see,'' He carries on as I moan, my voice seems to intoxicate him and he sucks my neck harder.
Jaden:
My plan is working so well! I have Ash coming into the house in 10 minutes, only to see me and my secret love Matt making love on the floor. That will teach him a lesson. He bullied me when I was younger and took my girlfriend. He will see how it feels to have someone you love taken from you.
Matt:
It feels so good, yet so wrong. I feel pissed yet and un-able to stop. Jaden pulls his shirt off and kisses me, pulling my head up from the floor and sitting me up; Then with his silky strong hands he pulls my shirt up and licks from my naval to my mouth and puts it in my mouth and we make out for a couple moments.
He throws my shirt off and smiles. He then looks to my groin area and then goes to undo my belt. He undoes it and gives me a cheeky grin.
I sit up and yell "STOP!"
He then passes me the Vodka bottle and makes me swig some more and chuckles.
"Good lad,"
I then undo my trousers and let Jaden to the rest.
Were both sat in our boxers making out. He then with two fingers puts his fingers inside my boxers and pulls my Calvin Klein boxers off.
He holds my hand and purrs, "we should go further Matt..."
He passes me a bottle and I cant read propperly for being so drunk.
''Whats this?'' I slur my words.
''Lubricant you know what to do Matt, go on.." he smiles.
I do what he says and apply it so were doing passionate Anal. I'm on the bottom, I feel helpless.
Suddenly, I hear a knock on the door Ash's voice shortly after...
''Hey Jaden, I'm here! I have a kebab for all of us. Hello? I have VODKA, HURRY?"
Ash:
Im so cold; I walk up Jaden's lawn and knock on the door - No answer. It's like home, and he said to come straight in, so I open the door.
It's quiet inside, so I yell, ''Hey Jaden, I'm here! I have a kebab for all of us. Hello? I have VODKA, HURRY?"
My eyes dart around the room, and then slowly to the floor. I see my Matthew, on the floor with my best friend Jaden.
I feel all the emotions of hurt, betrayal, anger and sadness.. I walk over to Jaden and punch his nose with all my anger and pain, he then goes to sleep. I walk over to Matt he looks tearful, and I see his face go red.
I grab his face with two hands and say ''what the fuck is going on Matt?!''
He's speechless.
My heart feels snapped in two. I feel sick and hurt.
I kiss Matt on the forehead and slap him around the face gently.
I go home and I feel emotionally unstable.
Chapter 12 - Wreckage.
Matt:
SHIT.
FUCK. CUNT. ASSHOLE. FUCKING FUKEDY FUUUUUUCK!!!!!!!
What the
HELL just happened?!
Jaden called me over...gig
cancelled...vodka at Jaden's...kissing...but who's lips were those?
They didn't feel the same - not slightly rough and tasting of
cigarettes and the faint lining of alcohol...No these lips had been
brand new and unfamiliar...These lips had not been Ash's...But who's
then?
My
head is pounding and my memories of the last two hours drag by
sluggishly, but eventually the evenings affairs came rushing at me
like a smack in the face. HOLY SHIT! I did WHAT?!?! Oh. my. god! And
Ash walked in to find us...on the...Oh Christ.
I
look around to find that I'm naked bar the slimy shit that Jaden gave
me. Jaden is passed out on the sofa...and apart from his heavy
breathing - the house bares nothing but silence.
I
need to speak to Ash... I grab my clothes from a bundle on the floor
and throw them on quickly. I give Jaden one last withering look
before grabbing my jacket and heading out the door. I run as fast as
I can to Ash's house - I bang on the door with as much force as I
have, but no reply...
So I decide to try the door, Its open
and I step inside "ASH? Ash?," I yell walking into each
room - but to face the same thing each try, no Ash...
Then as
I walk upstairs towards the bathroom my heart beats faster by the
second..I hear a continuing "Drip, drip, drip," sound
coming from the bathroom.
I think it's just a leaky tap, but I
still go and check anyway. And as soon as I open the bathroom door
and see what's inside... I scream my heart out.
Chapter 13 - Self-righteous Suicide.
Ash:
I lie in bed, an hour after running home from Jaden's... Writing one final song for Matt. My final song ever that I shall write in this life. It's already been decided, my fate. It was Jaden and Matt in fact who made this fate occur so suddenly...and painfully.
This excruciating pain that scolds me with its tremendous heat. It blisters my mind and my rational thoughts have gone hay-wire. I am nothing. No one. And from what I have learned today... I'm unworthy of the love of another.
I have wept my final tears; In fact I believe I have cried so much I have become dry... Shrivelled up... garbage. I am now just a hollow shell.
I mean nothing to anyone and there is no reason for my existence anymore... Not after That.
Still I find it hard to believe he could do that to me... But what would I know? Im a nothing. A nobody. Just a trinket, a toy for when he's bored. Well I shall no longer be a plaything for childish nobody's... I shall be stone. Dead to the world and dead to myself. I'm better off alone anyway. I can't be hurt again if I'm alone... forever. I'll be swallowed up into the darkness before morning... great.
I finish off writing the song for my unfaithful love. And begin writing the last note I'll ever write... sitting in the bathtub, razor at the ready... I scrawl in a tearstained hand...'Dear Matthew,' ...
Matt:
The bath is filled with scarlet blood.
The dripping is coming from the slit neck of a rag-doll body.
The blood falling to the floor in little rivulets.
But even though I hate to admit it to myself, after checking the face of this poor creature once, twice... a third time.... I realise its Ash.
Ash is dead... Because of me.
I fall to the ground and let out an ear-splitting scream... my heart just broke.
It feels like it's been torn to a thousand tiny pieces, It feels like I've been repeatedly run over by a fast moving truck... It feels like death itself.
I check his pulse... Maybe there's a chance?
I feel along his chest for a heartbeat... anything. But end up with silence and the continuous dripping of his blood upon the floor.
The tears roll down my cheeks and I'm saying something...Though I'm not aware of what exactly...
My mind is numb except for the single thought that Ash really was dead. I grab my mobile from my pocket and dial 911.
"Hello, I would like to report a suicide..."
Chapter 14 - Your Call.
Matt:
It had been a week and a half since Ash's death. The whole episode after the phone call to the ambulance... that's a blur. All I know is that Ash is truly dead. And that it's all my fault.
Schools been a bitch and life is an endless routine of school, drinking, crying myself to sleep and hurting myself to subside the pain of it all just a little..
But on the Wednesday, the day of Ash's funeral I get a call.
"Hello, is this Matt?" says a middle age sounding female voice.
"Yes it is, who's this?" I ask.
"It's Ash Hayberly's mother, I've called to tell you that what they've found what they think might be a suicide note - Addressed to you, so we would appreciate if you would open it for us so we can see - sob-what it says?"
"Oh," that was unexpected "Sure, I'll come over and open it - When would you like me to come?"
"Would today be okay?"
"Yes, I'll be right over."
I grab my jacket and run to Ash's house.
My knocking at the door is answered by a misty eyed middle aged woman I presume is Ash's mother. She greets me with a generous hug. I say generous because it's not at all what I deserve.
She leads me into the kitchen to sit on a wooden seat by the table. In front of me is an envelope with my name scrawled on it in black ink and in Ash's hand. My eyes blur with built up tears..."I don't think I can do this," I whispered.
"Please Matt, for us?" the woman begged. I gave in and tore open the envelope - To reveal two sheets of paper. On one a song was written, it went;
'I was about to put a bullet to my brain, when someone pulled me out and saved me from the darkness that remained.. and that someone was you.
You were my light, my knight in shining armour...
You were my tearstained lullaby...
You were my ride to heaven, my one way ticket to a...Better life...
Until you broke my heart, tore it up to a million tiny pieces scattered over you...
Scatter my ashes, bury my heart, torn apart, ripped to shreds no mercy upon my soul
Fell down a big black hole... but who's gonna save me now?
Slitting away the pain, every cut a little easier, a little deeper a little further into the dark
Where's that spark now that innocent light?
As the curtain closes on my life the darkness griping me, my feelings free in the wind, my heart scattered, and my life gone I feel as one.
You took my heart, Tore it apart; you drove me to this, my one true love, held my heart and ripped it apart.
Down I go, never to return
I hope you're happy now....
Yes, I hope you're happy now...That I'm gone...'
"That was his song to me." My tears spilled over and the woman patted my back. I handed her the sheet to read herself and wearily moved on to the next sheet of paper. This read;
'The blood I shed means nothing at all
When will it be my Turn, my Time to fall
I hold the razor blade in my hand
Shaking, trembling, looking at the elastic band
I take my eyes off it and stare at my arm
I think to myself the words Self-Harm
Everyone asks why I do what I do
No one understand what they put me though
My thoughts finally stop and go away
There now is nothing anyone can do or say
I slowly place the razor blade on my wrist
My face burns, my eyes a cloudy mist
A single tear falls slowly from my face
I start to think again, my thoughts pace
I start to ask questions, like ,does anyone care?
And if so then why do they point and stare?
I stop and realise the blood on the floor
Is falls faster and faster, more and more
I place an old cloth on my battered wrist
I lay back on my bed with a clenched fist
I close my eyes and think of sweet dreams
Maybe tomorrow nothing will be as it seems
Everyone will like or love me for who I am
Or maybe they will look at me and won't give a damn
I might as well end this shit now
But what will I do it with, and/or how
I write a short but thoughtful suicide note
And slowly I slit my throat'
Each heartfelt letter sliced through me like a diamond laced with acid slicing through my skin.
Each line drew me to excruciating pain.
A pain I have never felt before in my life. But I couldn't cry. Had I no emotions left? No tears left to weep? Was I dried up after crying enough to last a lifetime?
I got up quickly from the chair...and ran.
I ran as fast as I could to place I knew best. The place where as a child I had made dens and watched the trains go by... The Railway Bridge.
It was small, secluded and on the mostly deserted part of town. The bridge hung low under the twilight sky. And I heard a train getting nearer... Perfect timing.
So this is it. This is how this cliché 'emo' love story ends.
With me Matthew Damsons throwing myself in front of a train because my one true love Ash is dead BECAUSE of me.
In a strange way it's rather ironic and amusing. But only if you have a bitter since of humour. Like Jaden - who's probably getting fucking wasted right now stupid TWA-Oh here comes the train...
What? It's not like you can blame me right? What's left to live for when the person I was living for is dead?
It IS me that needs to die to end this pain... And I'm doing it to be with Ash too. So goodbye to anyone that actually fucking cares... I'll see you all in hell.
And I step off the platform onto the train tracks. Just as a train turns the corner... and within a sixth of a second...
I'm enveloped in darkness.
*NOTICE - I did not write the poem in this chapter, I found it on some website quite some time ago and thought it seemed appropriate. I do not know who wrote it (it was unnamed) So please don't get mad at me. HOWEVER, I did write the song, and I hope you all like it. This IS the final chapter, boo :( But I hope you all enjoyed reading it ~ Jaay*
Matt:
It had been a week and a half since Ash's death. The whole episode after the phone call to the ambulance... that's a blur. All I know is that Ash is truly dead. And that it's all my fault.
Schools been a bitch and life is an endless routine of school, drinking, crying myself to sleep and hurting myself to subside the pain of it all just a little..
But on the Wednesday, the day of Ash's funeral I get a call.
"Hello, is this Matt?" says a middle age sounding female voice.
"Yes it is, who's this?" I ask.
"It's Ash Hayberly's mother, I've called to tell you that what they've found what they think might be a suicide note - Addressed to you, so we would appreciate if you would open it for us so we can see - sob-what it says?"
"Oh," that was unexpected "Sure, I'll come over and open it - When would you like me to come?"
"Would today be okay?"
"Yes, I'll be right over."
I grab my jacket and run to Ash's house.
My knocking at the door is answered by a misty eyed middle aged woman I presume is Ash's mother. She greets me with a generous hug. I say generous because it's not at all what I deserve.
She leads me into the kitchen to sit on a wooden seat by the table. In front of me is an envelope with my name scrawled on it in black ink and in Ash's hand. My eyes blur with built up tears..."I don't think I can do this," I whispered.
"Please Matt, for us?" the woman begged. I gave in and tore open the envelope - To reveal two sheets of paper. On one a song was written, it went;
'I was about to put a bullet to my brain, when someone pulled me out and saved me from the darkness that remained.. and that someone was you.
You were my light, my knight in shining armour...
You were my tearstained lullaby...
You were my ride to heaven, my one way ticket to a...Better life...
Until you broke my heart, tore it up to a million tiny pieces scattered over you...
Scatter my ashes, bury my heart, torn apart, ripped to shreds no mercy upon my soul
Fell down a big black hole... but who's gonna save me now?
Slitting away the pain, every cut a little easier, a little deeper a little further into the dark
Where's that spark now that innocent light?
As the curtain closes on my life the darkness griping me, my feelings free in the wind, my heart scattered, and my life gone I feel as one.
You took my heart, Tore it apart; you drove me to this, my one true love, held my heart and ripped it apart.
Down I go, never to return
I hope you're happy now....
Yes, I hope you're happy now...That I'm gone...'
"That was his song to me." My tears spilled over and the woman patted my back. I handed her the sheet to read herself and wearily moved on to the next sheet of paper. This read;
'The blood I shed means nothing at all
When will it be my Turn, my Time to fall
I hold the razor blade in my hand
Shaking, trembling, looking at the elastic band
I take my eyes off it and stare at my arm
I think to myself the words Self-Harm
Everyone asks why I do what I do
No one understand what they put me though
My thoughts finally stop and go away
There now is nothing anyone can do or say
I slowly place the razor blade on my wrist
My face burns, my eyes a cloudy mist
A single tear falls slowly from my face
I start to think again, my thoughts pace
I start to ask questions, like ,does anyone care?
And if so then why do they point and stare?
I stop and realise the blood on the floor
Is falls faster and faster, more and more
I place an old cloth on my battered wrist
I lay back on my bed with a clenched fist
I close my eyes and think of sweet dreams
Maybe tomorrow nothing will be as it seems
Everyone will like or love me for who I am
Or maybe they will look at me and won't give a damn
I might as well end this shit now
But what will I do it with, and/or how
I write a short but thoughtful suicide note
And slowly I slit my throat'
Each heartfelt letter sliced through me like a diamond laced with acid slicing through my skin.
Each line drew me to excruciating pain.
A pain I have never felt before in my life. But I couldn't cry. Had I no emotions left? No tears left to weep? Was I dried up after crying enough to last a lifetime?
I got up quickly from the chair...and ran.
I ran as fast as I could to place I knew best. The place where as a child I had made dens and watched the trains go by... The Railway Bridge.
It was small, secluded and on the mostly deserted part of town. The bridge hung low under the twilight sky. And I heard a train getting nearer... Perfect timing.
So this is it. This is how this cliché 'emo' love story ends.
With me Matthew Damsons throwing myself in front of a train because my one true love Ash is dead BECAUSE of me.
In a strange way it's rather ironic and amusing. But only if you have a bitter since of humour. Like Jaden - who's probably getting fucking wasted right now stupid TWA-Oh here comes the train...
What? It's not like you can blame me right? What's left to live for when the person I was living for is dead?
It IS me that needs to die to end this pain... And I'm doing it to be with Ash too. So goodbye to anyone that actually fucking cares... I'll see you all in hell.
And I step off the platform onto the train tracks. Just as a train turns the corner... and within a sixth of a second...
I'm enveloped in darkness.